Job identity?

I'll be honest now. After a month and a half of recruiting through one of Canada's best (and most expensive) business schools, I still don't have a job. It's not easy to admit, but it's been easier to deal with since I was unsuccessful earlier this year when I recruited for a summer internship.

Why does the job search feel so frustrating? I've come to realize that it's because it causes so much pressure to rely on myself. Recently, I've struggled with the fact that I do "all the right things" to get a good job- I'm always on top of schoolwork, I network with all the recruiters and send them thank you emails, I've built up a great resume, and I present myself as professional and friendly as possible. Yet I haven't seen the fruit of this. My sense of worthlessness increases with each rejection letter. The fact is, my own efforts does not promise that I will get a job. (Of course, I believe God has the sovereignty to bless me with a job if it's his will.)

This puts into perspective that maybe being a Christian is something better. Right now, the hope of getting a job is not guaranteed, no matter what the business school statistics say. But the hope of living in heaven with God after I die is a hope that is 100% guaranteed. It's a hope that can't be frustrated, it can't be taken away, and it isn't determined by being in the right place at the right time. It's hope that's real because of faith.

I'm beginning to understand how God is the only way we as humans can be satisfied. Life carries on so much uncertainty that it causes us to doubt ourselves, other people, and our situations. When I let the things of life become my identity, such as my job status, my friends, my fashion, or my wealth, I lose sense of hope and security the moment I lose these things. But identity in Christ is at another level. It can't be taken away by anyone or anything. Therefore, hope in eternal life will never fail and that makes me so joyful!

An encouragement to you and to myself is to find identity in Christ only. That is the warmest, softest pillow you will ever find to embrace you with comfort when uncertainties in life cause you to doubt. Please pray for me and for other friends to maintain this mindset with the pressures of finding a job or getting into grad school for next year!

Love,

J

Be bold in faith

Hi friends!

I've decided to keep this blog going because I realized how much God-time I get when I reflect on all the things He's done. I'd love for you to join me on my life-long journey!

So I just finished my 5th week of school and it has been the most exhausting week I think I've ever ever had. My week was full of 18 hours of class, 2 networking events, 2 interviews, 3 job applications, and 3 meetings! I praise God, though, because I didn't feel anxious or stressed as I had felt during my previous recruiting season in January. I've tried to make things different this time around by praying before and after all the job things I was involved in. God really answered my prayers and put peace in my heart that I need not worry about the career life was I was about to start. I found comfort in this promise God made for all his children (Matt 6:33 is actually our ACF theme verse!):

“Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothes? Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? Can any one of you by worrying add a single hour to your life? 

“And why do you worry about clothes? See how the flowers of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you—you of little faith? So do not worry, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own. (Matt 6:25-37)

My teammate being bold!

On top of all doing all these school and job activities, I worked as a club executive for our Asian Christian Fellowship (ACF). This week was clubs week, where all of the 200 clubs on campus set up a booth in a building for students to pass by and sign up for membership. We wanted to take it seriously this year to be bold about preaching the gospel to the students. I was so nervous before I started because I was scared to be rejected or that I wouldn't know how to say the right things. God really gave me courage to approach people and PRAISE GOD, I told the whole gospel to over 10 people this week! It gave me so much energy and erased all the fear when I knew God was there with me. It was intentional, but I kept my interactions with people like a conversation. I found it important to discover what they already believed in, what they were looking for, and what they thought of Christianity. I came across many people who said they were Christians but were unaware of the basis of why they called themselves Christians, except that they did good things. As a result, I used the analogy that our sins were like black permanent marker streaked on a white t-shirt that could not be erased with good deeds. Jesus, who is the only one with a clean white shirt, asked to wear all our black and dirty shirts so we could wear his clean shirt because he loved us and not because we deserved it.

Although I may not know whether any of those I talked to would ever become Christians, I found joy knowing that at least they heard of the gospel and that God would be the one to open their hearts. Please pray for newcomers we talked to who are coming to our fellowship meeting tonight and for the hearts of everyone who heard the gospel!

Love,
J

A Journey's End

みんあさん、ひさしぶり。すみません、いそがしかった。

I'm so sorry for a late late blog! Coming back home has been so busy without much time to stop and reflect on Japan. I'm grateful for an August school course that has ended unexpected early this week so I have a few days to recharge and write this blog before the fall term begins.

My last three days in Japan were probably the most tiring days, but I loved all of it, so it didn't feel like work! The VBS (Vacation Bible School) program during these three days ran from 10am-2pm and we planned games, songs, crafts, a Bible lesson, and food each day, while teaching English to the kids. Although the program was short, compared to the VBS's I've done at home, it was very jam packed and required a lot of energy.

My favourite part was actually teaching the Bible lessons. Since some kids may not have ever heard of Jesus or God, we introduced the fundamentals of Christianity to lead up to the gospel. The first day, we taught how God was the creator of all the animals, plants, nature, and people. "God created everything" was the English phrase of the day and our butterfly craft was an extension of the beautiful things of the world God created. On day two, we presented "God made you special." In this lesson, we had an exercise where kids stood up if we asked who was a girl, who was a boy, who loved baseball, who loved to sing, etc, to demonstrate that everyone was unique, and therefore special. After, we passed around a secret shoebox with mysterious glitter pouring out of it. I told the kids that someone veeeery important to God was in that box and that they could take a peek but had to keep it a secret from the others. One by one, the kids lifted the lid and found them face-to-face with a mirror, and each one would exclaim,「ああ、わかった！」meaning, "Oh, I understand!" It warmed up my heart so much to hear the kids realize that each one was special to God. M told me later that when she was trying to control a little troublemaker, he looked in the box and she explained to him that it was a mirror because he was the special person. He suddenly quieted down and she felt that he probably didn't hear that at home very often. Japanese families are not very affectionate with one another and children are sometimes pressured to perform well in all areas of their life in order to not shame the family. With this, my prayer is that the kids really understand that their value isn't in their earthly success, but in being God's creation.


The lessons led up to the gospel teaching on the last day- "God loves you." However, this proved to be a challenge for us to understand how to explain Jesus' death on the cross in a way the Japanese kids would relate to. Kids in Canada and US are made aware that they are guilty because of their sins. These are the bad things they think, say, or do that break God's heart, and they need God's forgiveness to take away their sins. Japanese kids, on the other hand, are in a culture that already draws attention to their shame and the need to restore themselves. Japanese people really put an effort at maintaining cleanliness everywhere, all the time. They must take shoes off at the door on lowered floors so dirt doesn't drift in, they use bathroom slippers whenever using the toilet so germs aren't carried out, and garbage is well taken care of and sorted. With this mindset, we told the kids that there was Someone who could make them clean forever. They wouldn't have to feel shameful or dirty anymore. Jesus, because he was perfect and died for the shameful things we've done, saved us so we only have to be cleansed of our sins once and for all. Although I didn't expect any instant responses from the kids, I really pray for and ask for your prayers for their hearts to openly inquire about Jesus and accept his gift of cleanliness.

One more amazing thing I witnessed on this trip- that God's mission field is literally everywhere! M and I went to the bathhouse every night because there were no showers at the church. We quickly made お姉さん (older sister) friends who also frequented the bathhouse. M explained to me that normally women would not open up easily or become friends in any other setting, like in a convenience store or a grocery store. It was only because you couldn't do much else while sitting in a hot tub with other naked ladies besides look away awkwardly or talk to them. This one lady we became close to told us a little about her life and where's she's travelled, and a few times we had the chance to tell her why we were in Japan. In the end, we felt intimate enough to invite her to church. Although she was busy that Sunday, I was really happy that we were able to plant a seed and be an example of a Christian to her. She was actually so unexpectedly nice to us, offering a ride home, bringing us candy, and buying tayaki (a common festival snack) from far away because I really wanted to eat a real one from Japan. I honestly felt so blessed and she's even recently sent me an email asking me how I'm doing!

Looking back on this trip now, I wouldn't have asked for a better experience! I am so grateful and touched by people's prayers and financial support. I really felt on fire for God, where I had no option but to trust God and not rely on myself, especially because of my inadequacy. God provided over and above all my needs in even in my unemployment and simple faith. He also gave me the opportunity to listen to people's stories and serve them despite my limited Japanese. 

But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me. (2 Corinthians 12:9)

Going forward, I hope to return to Japan for a longer term to build on my relationships with the church, the missionary, the kids, and the bathhouse lady. My goal is to improve my Japanese so I don't need to rely on a translator and to raise my own funds so I won't put a burden on others. I want to see more of what God can do in Japan!

どうもありがとうございました!

Love,

J

PS. Click here for a link to all my Japan photos!

Love in Morioka

ただいま！ I’m back!

The last few days in Japan was very exciting and crazy, and zapped much of our team’s energy. However, we powered through it with God’s strength and ended on a strong note.

After coming back from Iwaizumi, we were blessed with two days of recuperating and VBS planning. During this time, M’s family friends drove all the way from Tokyo (a day long trip) to visit her and the church. The couple greeted our team like we were old friends and they donated boxes and bags of food to us. I was so touched to receive such kindness from brothers and sisters who didn’t even know us and treated us like family! There was a box of mini buns they donated (it looked like a Japanese version of Chinese buns) and the couple explained that a team of disabled workers made those buns. Those volunteers worked their best on making the buns because they wanted to support missions if even they physically couldn’t go on missions. This gives me so much hope because it really shows that nothing- not disabilities, not finances, not even people- can get in the way of God using a person to be part of missions.

The next night, our team was blessed with the chance to go to the さんさ踊り (sansa odori), a festival that features traditional music and drumming. It’s unique to Morioka and happens every year during the first week of August. M and I were dressed up in yukata’s, the traditional festival wear for women, with the help of the missionary’s wife and the pastor’s wife. The yukata’s were so pretty and I was very grateful that the pastor’s wife lent them to us to be part of the matsuri (festival). Our team went downtown to immerse ourselves in the culture along with crowds of other Japanese people visiting from local towns. The main event was a sort of parade down a main street, where hundreds and hundreds of dancers from different groups danced, played instruments, and sang in celebration. It was amazing to see the talent in Morioka with people of all ages and the pride the Japanese had in the culture.

On Sunday, we heard another sermon from the pastor about the good Samaritan (Luke 10:25-37). Jesus brought up this parable when a lawyer asked Him what it took to inherit eternal life. Most of us remember that the man explained what he knew already, which was, “You shall love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your strength and with all your mind, and your neighbor as yourself.” However, it is easy to skip Jesus’ previous question, “What is written in the Law? How do you read it?” It’s really interesting that Jesus doesn’t ask what have we read, but whether we’ve read it with the conviction to do what it says and to carry it out in our lives. For me, many things in the Bible becomes head knowledge, like trusting in God, loving my neighbour, and fleeing from temptation. I know all those things, but I often catch myself not believing it or acting it out in my behaviour. The pastor then encouraged us to love our neighbours like the Samaritan man did- with not 10% of ourselves, not 50%, not 90%, but with all 100% of ourselves. We become one with our neighbour so we place all the love we usually have for ourselves on to our neighbour.

What’s really cool is that the first sermon I heard after I returned to Canada was on the same passage! The pastor addresses Jesus’ response to the question, “And who is my neighbour?” However, Jesus doesn’t tell the lawyer who his neighbour is, but explains through the parable how to be a neighbour. What Jesus says is that we shouldn’t be focusing on who we should love, because he already asks us to love everyone- our friends and enemies. He wants us to focus on how to be loving. We continued on this note, where the pastor explained that a loving neighbour puts others first. This seems so simple, but it is the hardest thing for mankind to do. Throughout our whole lives, from baby to old age, we like to put ourselves first. We are most well aware of what we want, and things that deviate from fulfilling these desires frustrate us. But to love our neighbours as ourselves is to throw away selfishness and embrace selflessness. This includes throwing away what we value, such as our reputation, time, energy, strength, and finances.

It is admittedly hard to love others, especially those who don’t love us or who wrong us. But C.S. Lewis puts it best when he talks about loving our neighbours despite their mistakes:

Now that I come to think of it, I remember Christian teachers telling me long ago that I must hate a bad man’s actions, but not hate the bad man: or, as they would say, hate the sin but not the sinner. For a long time I used to think this a silly, straw-splitting distinction: how could you hate what a man did and not hate the man? But years later it occurred to me that there was one man to whom I had been doing this all my life—namely myself. However much I might dislike my own cowardice or conceit or greed, I went on loving myself. There had never been the slightest difficulty about it. In fact the very reason why l hated the things was that I loved the man. Just because I loved myself, I was sorry to find that I was the sort of man who did those things. Consequently, Christianity does not want us to reduce by one atom the hatred we feel for cruelty and treachery. We ought to hate them. Not one word of what we have said about them needs to be unsaid. But it does want us to hate them in the same way in which we hate things in ourselves: being sorry that the man should have done such things, and hoping, if it is anyway possible, that somehow, sometime, somewhere he can be cured and made human again. (Mere Christianity)

My little rant on this amazing passage in the Bible has really extended this post, so I’ll continue the rest of my Japan stories (VBS and post-thoughts) in my next post. I’ll just ask for your prayers for me to be a loving neighbour. It’s always easy for me to find faults in others and ignore my own faults. But pray that I can be aware of what others need and to love on them unconditionally and intentionally. When I say that, I mean loving not because of bubbly feelings or because I will get something in return, but making a choice to love.

ありがとうございます！

Love,

J

Prayers for Iwaizumi

ともだちたち、ひさしぶり！

'Tis the night before VBS! However, we've spent our last week well, preparing for the VBS as well as spending 3 days in Iwaizumi. We teamed up with 3 other girls from Japan and America to help out a local missionary who has been working alone building churches in the Iwate prefecture for 15 years. Iwaizumi is an area near the coast that was damaged by the 2011 tsunami. It is absolutely beautiful there but unfortunately houses people who have lost their homes and families so they have to live in kasetsu (temporary homes).

While we were able to stay at a traditional Japanese home, called akerakan, we witnessed kasetsu communities that families could call a house, but not a home. On our first day in Iwaizumi, we set up a cafe and kids activities so people of all ages could gather to talk or play games or enjoy snacks. The kids loved all the activities we had for them and the old obaachans enjoyed having our artistic team member draw a caricature of them. What stood out to me the most was a girl, probably 8 or 9 years old, looking out for the kids and babies younger than her. She seemed to know if they were sad or needed help and was very willing to take time to make them happy. This really made me wonder if she had to look out for herself or younger sisters in her family as well and I realized that it was quite possible in kasetsu families that parents are too busy or were lost in the tsunami.

The next day, I was blessed with the opportunity to visit two kasetsus, the first having an entirely different atmosphere. Only one ojiisan (grandpa) showed up to the cafe. The kasetsu community was eerily quiet and no one was outside. The kasetsu from the previous day was full of life, where men were chatting and smoking outside, people passed by and greeted one another, and a man was out for a walk with his dog. However, at this kasetsu, it felt like hope was lacking. The ojiisan was very happy to talk to us and shared a bit of his life with us. He said that his home was very small and narrow and that the walls between each house was very thin. This caused people in kasetsus to keep to themselves, because they were afraid of bothering others by talking too much or having the TV on. The missionary shared with us that this group-centered culture of pleasing others may have been why the turnout to cafes was so low. She mentioned that because the room was small, people who may have wanted to attend were afraid they would cause discomfort so they would let others go instead. It saddened my heart that people like the ojiisan had to live so cautiously like this without knowing for how long. The ojiisan said he had been living there for 2 years and expected 2 more years in the kasetsu before the government was supposed to kick them out, but he didn't know what would happen then. People have already been slowly moving out of the kasetsu into permanent homes, but unfortunately that was changing the community feel in the kasetsus and making some families feel left behind.

In contrast, the kasetsu community room we visited in the afternoon was covered in walls of encouragement for Japan's recovery. It was much more joyful there and we had a lot of fun with 3 very cute kids! One boy named Fumia-kun was such a good kid, listening well and being kind, and he was so happy to be with us. At the end, our teammate was pondering which drink he wanted from the vending machine after depositing his money. Fumia-kun quickly yanked the cancel button, saying that our teammate should save his money and watch out because the machine would keep the money and cancel the transaction if it took to long before a drink was chosen. This kind of selflessness is so rarely seen with kids Fumia-kun's age and he was one of our favourites.

The last day was one of the best days for me. We went to a home where mostly old obaachan (grandmas) came out to the cafe. One obaachan asked to sing karaoke and was happy to see us try. She was too shy to  sing on her own at first, but after a while, she abandoned all pride and sang loudly into the microphone even though she couldn't get the words or the rhythm right! We also helped provide a craft for the obaachan's, giving them beads to make a bracelet. I helped out the singing obaachan and she was so funny! She didn't hold back and try hard to be extra polite, like most Japanese people. She pointed out a weirdly shaped bead on the bracelet I had finished for her and said it didn't look right. I asked a teammate to cut it off for me and he did. However, she then pushed the beads around and pointed at the bracelet. She said something like, "There's a hole here! It's alright, you don't have to make the bracelet again... but there's a hole here! ... I'm really sorry, really. Don't need another bracelet... But there's a hole! It looks weird!" I was laughing so hard that I didn't have the heart to tell her that she could just even out the beads so there was no hole. I just made her another one and she was really happy. It made me happy too because she said there was no need to be polite because we were friends. That was the first that someone called me a friend because most people hold back knowing my Japanese is terrible and that I'm mostly smiling and nodding. I loved this obaachan and really hoped that in the future, her openness and transparency would allow her to be open to Christianity one day.

Another woman at the kasetsu came by and showed us all these cultural items that were featured in the upcoming Bon festival in the Tohoku/Iwaizumi area. She taught us about the flutes and cymbals and dances and explained that were used to commemorate ancestors and family members who have died. Originally the dances and music were performed for the gods but they were now more used simply as celebration. However, a teammate commented later that he felt a lot of spiritual warfare when she had come. The missionary explained that the specific kasetsu area was very closed from Christianity and that the women who came to the cafes knew it was a Christian group. She felt as though the woman sharing her culture was not only because she had pride in the things in her community, but because she wanted to bring her Buddhist background into our Christian-run cafe.

Therefore, as this blogpost title is called, Iwaizumi needs your prayers! It takes almost 20 years on average to build a church in this rural area (15 years for urban Japanese cities) and the area is not very open to Christianity. The mission field will also be changing, because kasetsus will be emptying out and new communities will be built. All these changes may dampen the hope of Japanese people who don't want more change and who dislike constantly adapting to new atmospheres. The local missionary may have to change her cafe structure and may lose connections with people who must move away. So please please pray for this area!

Lastly, VBS tomorrow will need your prayers!
- Thank God for a decent turnout of 25-35 kids each day along with 10-15 parents who will stay with them
- Pray that the camp won't only be about fun games, but lessons about God and what God asks us to do
- Pray for the team to be in unity as we may be tired and worn out during the long day
- Pray that the language barrier won't be an obstacle for us non-Japanese speaking
- Pray that connections with the parents and families will be built so the church can grow through this camp

ほんとうに、ありがとう！

Love,
J

Pocari sweat

みんな、こんばんは！

Why Pocari Sweat? Because I've been sweating a lot these past few days! Japan is the land of vending machines and one of the most popular drinks they sell is Pocari Sweat, similar to Gatorade. Although the days get hot and humid, God has really blessed us with a cooler summer than usual.

The past few days in Morioka has been amazing and exciting and has made me so full of joy! Today I really couldn't stop smiling and was the first day I had so much energy all day long. I'll try to share as much as I can of what has happened, but with blogging, I can only say so much.

After a long ride to Japan where we lost a day (about 11 hours of time zone and 12 hours on the plane), we arrived safely and stayed at a local hotel for the night. Although everyone was exhausted by 8pm, we did our best to stay awake to adjust to the time zone. It was really neat to experience a traditional Japanese hotel because they provided all the toiletries and even pajamas! I loved bonding with people during that plane ride and especially got to know the girls my age when we stayed in a room together.

Us girls in Japanese pajamas!

I really admire one girl (R) who has only finished grade 11 because she is such a mature Christian already and obeying God's calling! I don't think God was important in my life at all when I was her age and it made me realized how much I can learn from people who are younger than me. The other girl (M) is a Japanese American who is a little older than me and I look up to her so much! She is only my team to Morioka while R is going to another city and the past few days with M has developed such a great sisterhood between us. I've been able to share my struggles, weaknesses, and excitements with her and she's also been sharing so much of her wisdom. I'm very very blessed to have her on my team, especially as she translates for me whenever I get dumbfounded by a stranger talking to me in Japanese.

Morioka Minami Church has graciously welcomed our team of five (3 guys, M and I) and we've been staying there since Saturday. We were able to meet and connect with the missionary family there as well as the pastor's family. Both families have two kids that are just bundles of energy! Through playing with them, I realized that having weak Japanese doesn't matter with kids. The universal sign of a big bear chasing them around the room is enough for them to squeal with delight and have a lot of fun. This made me more excited about working with kids during the VBS program because I felt so much joy making them happy and didn't feel nervous about the language barrier anymore.

On Sunday, I got to hear a message in Japanese, and that was truly difficult! We studied a passage from 1 Samuel 25 and I had to ask M to translate for me after what the pastor was preaching about. In summary, the passage was describing David's anger towards Nabal, who turned away David's servants when they came to reap some harvest. David was upset because he had treated Nabal's servants well under his care and expected the same from Nabal. He was all ready to kill for revenge, but God sent Abigail, Nabal's wife to stop him. She knew that Nabal was wrong and selfish, but she asked David for mercy and wanted to give him food and goods as atonement. The pastor explained that this passage could apply in our lives where we face enemies while doing God's work. Many times, we may feel that it is our battle and will fight in response with our own abilities, but instead, we should trust God and consult Him first as it is really His battle. Just like in this story, we may feel the right to feel angry and get revenge, but God may ask us to show mercy instead. I learned that I must be willing to give my battles to God, no matter if it involves conflicts with team members, frustrating children, or unwelcoming Japanese people.

Another great thing that caught my attention was the little sermon for the kids. Because the church is small, there is a message for the kids that is about 5 minutes before all the adults hear the sermon. I was really happy to be able to understand a lot of the Japanese and felt like a kid who was amazed by the story of David and Goliath. I guess learning a new language makes me feel young again!

We had more bonding time with the church members during lunch and after, when we headed to go bowling! It was great to laugh and talk with them, as well as get to know their kids. The kids were super silly and decided to wear bowling pin suits. I couldn't stop laughing when they jumped around, knocked each other over, and needed me to pick them up again. In the evening, our pastor took us to a gym where we played indoor soccer with another missions team that was doing a music tour in Japan. Other people who were not part of either missions group but wanted to play soccer joined us. It was awesome seeing how connections were being made by the pastors and local soccer players through something as simple as an intramural game.

Popsicles are the best after sauna
and soaking in hot tubs at the onsen!

Today was very much a planning day and preparation day. We spent much of the morning going over schedules and delegations for VBS as well as our trip to Iwaizumi tomorrow. There is some music that the missionary in Iwaizumi asked us to prepare, so we started practicing after lunch. This quickly turned into a worship jam session and we spent a few hours playing all the worship songs we had on our hearts. It felt like it had been so long since I was able to worship God in English that it was so comforting and easy to just let my heart out. I also loved that bonding time with my team as we were all chipping in with our voices, even though some were shy. After a little bit of shopping at the mall nearby and another daily shower at the onsen (public bath), we debriefed and prayed over melon/watermelon popsicles, and now we're ready for bed!

Here are a few prayer requests I'd like to ask of you:
- our time in Iwaizumi for the next few days, where we will be connecting with older people at cafes and doing a few kids programs
- discomfort for both of my ankles and M's knee after the soccer game
- registration for the VBS as the church reaches out to neighbourhood families

今、ねむいだから、おやすみなさい！

Love,
J

All is well with my soul (and foot!)

Hi everyone back at home!

きのう、LAでトレーニングをして、日本語をたくさん練習しました！準備ができています！

Yesterday was a looooong day of training and preparing in LA, SoCal. We spent our time bonding with our teams, learning about Japan, making a conflict resolution covenant, studying the Bible, and packing away gifts, food, and craft supplies.

In particular, we studied Colossians 3:1-17 to find how God wants us to work together as Christians in a team. The passage contains many commands and asks us to take off our "old self" of sexual immorality, impurity, lust, evil desires, and greed, and to put on a "new self" like clothes of compassion, kindness, humility, gentleness, and patience. These attributes and behaviours are how God wants our teams to interact. Most importantly,

And over all these virtues put on love, which binds them all together in perfect unity. (Colossians 3:14)

Teams that are driven by love are teams that work together best and are able to resolve any conflict. Our teams created our own covenants based on this passage in Colossians and found practical methods to confront conflict. I wish I knew this before my third year in university. The business school this year emphasized heavily on teamwork through 48-hour reports and 24-hour reports. Although I experienced both "successful" and "unsuccessful" team processes, I feel that if I had approached the group work with God's love as a priority, each project would have been successful.

I wanted to share this old hymn with you because of how I felt before leaving home. I didn't feel at peace with God a few days before leaving, mostly because of personal desires that were battling God's desires. Letting go of things I wanted selfishly was one of the hardest decisions I had to make but I knew it would not be good for me! I didn't want to use the Japan trip to help me ignore the issue, because then I would be going to Japan for the wrong reason. So after much prayer, I decided to give up this burden of temptation to God. WOW, did that give me so much joy! I finally felt at peace with God so I could focus on how to serve Him best in Japan. My mom was practicing this hymn on the piano that night and I couldn't help but join in and sing with her because all was truly well with my soul! There was so much peace in my heart when I fell asleep and I had the best sleep ever.

What I learned from this was how important it is to listen to God when He talks to us. It is rare to find that God will talk physically or audibly nowadays, but He uses methods that speak loudest to us. In this case, my troubled conscience and sleeplessness was the Holy Spirit tugging on my heart. He was saying, "Justina! You know there is something wrong and you know what's right! I'm letting you make your own decision and I will love you no matter what choice you make. However, I want you to make the right choice so you can better understand my love and receive my blessings so much more." God is really the perfect parent!

In addition to this victory, I have another reason to be grateful! Some of you may have heard, but the morning before I was to fly to LA, I twisted my foot badly. For some reason,  (much to the inconvenience to my parents), I always wonderfully injure myself before leaving for something important, such as a competition or first year of university. I had to hobble on my foot all day to run errands and even attend a dance class. By the end of the day, it was all swollen, purple, and quite painful. The next day, I rushed around to see a doctor, get an x-ray, and pick up anti-inflammatory pills. God helped me get on the plane on time but when I arrived in my first stop in Toronto, my foot was still causing me to limp. However, after the 5 hour flight to LA, the swelling had gone down by a lot and I didn't have to limp anymore. It is much better now and could only have been a miracle from God!

fear not, for I am with you; be not dismayed, for I am your God; I will strengthen you, I will help you, I will uphold you with my righteous right hand. (Isaiah 41:10)

I realized that praying a lot and trusting God would be in control was all that was needed, and God would take care of the rest. :)

Along with these praise items, please continue to pray for:
- my foot to heal fully and no more injuries
- something unknown that caused my right eye to be puffy last night and unable to wear contacts
- a safe 12 hour flight to Japan today and smooth time zone transition
- our team to continue bonding and growing in God together

ありがとう！

Love,

J